I'm slowly dying...

If I could slap my immune system, I would.  You see yesterday (yesterday really being Friday) I slept for a few hours (read: not long enough) and taped my video for Hooping Idol Disco Week on Hooping.org


 Since I was so worried about sending in the complete video in time, I went ahead and posted it.  It didn't finish uploading till 8.  I took a thirty minute nap.  I felt awful when I woke up. My ear was hurting.  After the last blog on weight loss was posted, I was doing fine till I got an awful case of strep.  My eating derailed till this week.  I was doing great!  I was thinking surely it's the weather, lack of sleep, stress was causing my body pain.  I went to sleep for ten long hours after work.  I woke up and my throat was tight and hurting.  I've been checking for strep symptoms (white dots in the back of your throat) religiously.  It's not too bad.  But I'm watching you, throat. I get strep about every few years.  Usually it's like strep this year, ear infection next, etc.  The problem that worries me other than I don't want to be sick again is that I'm afraid they will tell me to get my tonsils out.  I have very large tonsils.  Always have. It's genetic.  They make comments about them every time.  The last few times the doctors have asked, "Why haven't my tonsils been taken out?"  Because no one has told me point blank, "They have to be out now."  They usually make jokes. If it's not an issue, why take them out?  I'm pretty sure cutting organs out for fun was nixed for a fun time years ago.


 But I'm pretty sure this is my third or more strep case in the last three years.  Let alone it was just a few weeks ago I had strep.  I'm scared.  I mean who wants to have surgery?  And I'm thinking about work and all that other stuff like money and comp time.  Another worry for me would be my hooping. If I have to have this surgery in the next few weeks, if I'm voted through to the next rounds in Hooping Idol, what happens then?  I don't know how long it takes to recover from a tonsillectomy but I have that I'll be having the Hoopnotica training in May.   I know I'm letting my imagination run rampant but I knew this would eventually happen. 


Actually, I'm sick of this past winter and spring.  I've been getting sick every month it seems.  I had the GI virus, strep, colds, everything.  I'm done, yo. And most of the time, it's right when I'm starting to get healthy again.  Tell me what is up, body!?  Shouldn't my body be appreciating the lack of fat and thousands of extra calories?  Shouldn't my body be loving the extra non-hoop workouts?  When I lost the eighty pounds, I never got sick.  


 I do honestly believe that I will be calling in at my other job in the morning.  I'm worried about my full-time job because I'm hearing through the grapevine that they will require us to work a few extra day.  I can't do that.  I already feel like I live there and I hardly ever spend time with the people that matter.  In a few months, if you hear about me looking for a new job, that may be why.  Anyone know of nice jobs that have flexible schedules that work preferably Monday-Friday, dayshift (maybe, I'm flexible) that pay $12 an hour?  I feel like if I had a different job, it'd be SO much easier for me to do hoopy things.  I really don't want to have to get a new certification for anything else.  


But hey, in good news, my Hooping Idol video is up.  At times, I feel okay about it and other times I just want to cry and shake like a leaf.  I'm afraid to let out half of my hooping style out.  So I stick traditional because I'm afraid no one will get it.  The style that you can see in a combination of Bare Bones Hooping and Welcome Spring!  In just a few bits of time in each video.  Honestly there are more videos that I don't post that illustrate it better.  So, please do consider voting me through the next round of Hooping Idol.  And no, I didn't go into Hooping Idol blind.  I remember reading/watching Shekinah Spins last year.  I know I will get some potentially rough critiques that will probably be like, "get a smaller hoop.  No shakey camera! Etc! No costume!"


And here's some new pictures that my friend, Stella made for me at the hoop jam!  Feel free to pin and all that fun stuff...

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