My future, My Life

Sometimes even the smallest amount of hooping in your day can make the badness go away. -Shannon, 2-11-11

It's November which means I am participating in NaNoWriMo.  I have also taken the @HoopingLove twitter to NaNodom.  That means I won't be posting or hooping as much.  Although I've been rewarding strenuous writing with mini hoop sessions.  Also, in a month, ask me if I'm editing my novel.  I'd appreciate someone harassing me to do more than write it...fix it.

Other than that, I've been contemplating my life.  As you may know, I work as a nurse aide.  I don't want to do this forever.  As much as I would love to be a professional hooper, I know that will not happen...maybe.  Either way, I have to get a day job.  I'd like to have a career but what would I like to do?  I'm sorry but nursing has so much bullshit in it.  I don't know if I want to go down that rabbit hole.  A lot of nurses will tell you now a days that they would never, ever consider going into nursing.  Nursing is not about the care anymore.  It's about the paperwork and don't do anything wrong.  Every day I worry about getting wrote up for abuse.  If I become a nurse, I'd have to worry about one med error or more.  I don't want to be a nurse aide forever though.

I was browsing the local community college website.  I clicked random things that I might like.  I wound up clicking human services.  I liked all those classes and helping people.  Everything I've done so far has helped people. What's a step up from a human services degree?  Well, I thought social services.  I started digging and I could start a degree for social services at BCTC.

I know social work has most of the same bullshit but it has less of the actual shit.  I know there might be some crazy hours and awful pay.  But surely it will be better than third shift CNA?  I know there will be very sad cases.  I've seen horrible crap at this nursing home.  Surely seeing an abused kid is the same? When you seen someone die in front of you, surely everything has been broken?  I have hooping as my stress relief if anything.

I figure I could take as many classes as possible at BCTC.  They garentee smooth transfers to University of Kentucky.  I wouldn't even mind staying an extra semester to take a few other classes.  I would like to take American Sign Language and Spanish to make sure that I have skills that will make me a very wanted employee.  I'd get a BS in Social Work and a minor in Spanish.  Sounds legit?  Might take five years and yes, I would have to work still.  My friend who is in the career said there is a state program that would pay for my schooling if I am accepted.  She also said she made about $400 more than I make base (without second job and overtime).

I really love helping people and I wouldn't mind doing this.  I'm just starting to think third shift is ruining my marriage and my health.  I have dark circles under my eyes no matter how much I sleep.  What do you think?  Am I insane?

And good news though: my husband is going to try to get his masters degree! ^___________^